"Pictures and Memories"
All I have left of you is in a picture or memory. Never thoughts I'd stare at a picture willing it to come to life. Never thought I'd be so frantically trying to remember ever memory of you. But at the end of the day that's all I have left. You are gone leaving me with nothing but pictures and memories.
Don't get me wrong. I'd be lost without the things that keep me close to you to me. But a picture can't talk and I can't feel you holding my hand with a memory. At the end of the day that's all I have left. You are gone leaving me with nothing but pictures and memories.
Now I've become obsessed with making memories of my own and posting pictures all over my wall. Because I never know who might leave me next, leaving me with nothing but pictures and memories.
Written by Paige Tadpole
Monday, December 6, 2010
"Pictures and Memories"
Posted by paigebeth at 4:24 PM
Monday, November 1, 2010
Hello everyone! I hope everyone had a great weekend and got lots of candy haha. :) Guess how much candy I got? Zero! I suppose when I have children they will bring me some. :) Today I am posting about my baby brother, my last sibling, James Greg. Oh how much I love him! He is one of those type of children that you just want to squeeze his cheeks cause he's so cute! :) Of course he would hate that. :) And I have to say that he is growing up WAYYY too fast! :) But aren't they all?
James Greg was born on February 4, 2000. He is my only sibling who was born in the 2000's and Mama also carried on with calling him by his first and middle name like she started with Maria Rose. He is named after my dad's dad (Billy James) and my dad (Greg). I was 11 years old when he was born, and I was pretty much his second mama. :) I have always called him my baby since I helped raise him, and I still call him that to this day. And of course he HATES it! Haha! I am really trying not to call him that to his face since I embarrass him lol, but he will always be my baby. Even if he gets bigger than me, he will always be my baby! Forever! :D
When he was really little Maria Rose got a horse stick for her birthday, and she named the horse, Emily. Well, James Greg then called ALL horses Emily. We would be riding in the car, and we would pass horses in a field and we would ask him what they were. He would shout out, "Emilys"! :D That was so adorable! :D He also had nick names for all his siblings. He called me "Duh Duh", he called Carla, "La La", he called Jared, "Bill", he called Mandy, "Mo Mo", and he called Maria Rose, "Lou La". And he called himself "ME"! :D Soooo cute!!! :)
Today he is still such a sweetheart, and I love him so much! He likes to play baseball, and is really good at it. I have been to one of his games and I was so proud of him! :) When I see him I always want to hug and kiss him, and he is like grossed out. LOL! You know how little boys are. :) He also has a sarcastic side to him, too. If you like something, he will like the opposite of what you like. Example being football teams. Whatever teams my siblings like, he will pick the other team on purpose. :) He is so smart, too!
James Greg, if you are reading this, know that I love you so much. I don't mean to embarrass you lol, but I can't help it. I know that you may not remember me living at home that well since you were so little, but know that when I was there, I was your second mama. And Carla being your third. :) You are my baby brother and I have always loved you so much! You will always hold such a special place in my heart! Know that I am here if you ever need anything, okay? I love you so much and I miss you!
You'll always be my baby!
I love you,
Carla and I dressed him up in our baby doll clothes and we would play with him when we played "house". :)
Posted by paigebeth at 11:05 PM
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Hello! Wow, I can't believe I am blogging 3 days in a row! :D I really enjoy blogging and when I can think of something to post, I love it! Hope everyone is having a great Sunday!
Today is my little sis', Maria Rose's turn. She was born June 10, 1998. She was the first child born by a midwife, she was the first to be born before her due date (by two days), the first to not like a pacifier and the first to be called by her first and middle names. My mama LOVED Maria Rose put together and she wanted her to be called that. She would always correct us when we just called Maria, and she didn't like other people doing that. Over the years we have called her Rose for short or Rosie. Mama used to say she was her little rosebud. :)
Maria Rose has always had a more independent spirited personality. She loves to laugh and have a good time. She is so sweet & loving and has such a kind heart. She is kind of shy at first when you meet her, but after she warms up she is very friendly and outgoing.
She was the first baby I really remember helping take care of. She was born when I was 9 years old. I remember when we moved when she was a baby I was the babysitter. I kind of had mixed feelings about that since I was missing from all the action(moving things). But I held her, entertained her and kept her company. That is one of my first vivid memories of her as a baby.
When my mom became pregnant with James Greg, Maria Rose was still sleeping with my parents. So Mama and I had to wean her out of their bedroom and into mine and Carla's. We set up a toddler bed for her to sleep in, but where did she sleep every night? With Carla and me! :D But we didn't mind. :) Later on she shared a room with Mandy. Maria Rose and Mandy have always been close since they are close in age like Carla and I are.
Maria Rose always shared my love of cats. Once I had this cat named Prissy and she would suck on the inside of your hand between your thumb and pointer finger. For a long time she would only do it to mine and Maria Rose's hand. She then started sucking my mom's hand. Those were the only three people she ever did it to. My mom also loved cats, too. Guess that's where we got the love for them.
I also remember once when we were little, we were playing outside one evening. My parents were working in the garden we had, and Carla and I were playing with Mandy and Maria Rose in the dirt/sand we had in the drive way. Ground bees started buzzing around us and Carla, Mandy and I ran screaming. Maria Rose was a toddler, and we left her there playing in the dirt. Mama and Daddy came running and Mama scolded us for leaving Maria Rose with bees flying around her. Guess we got what we deserved because we were all stung except Maria Rose. So if I have never apologized for that Maria Rose, I apologize now. :)
If you are reading this Maria Rose, I want you to know that you one of the best sisters a girl could ever ask for. I always love to see your smiling, radiant face. You are so sweet and kind! I pray for you every day that God show you how much I love you! I miss you so much and I love you even more. You will always be my little rosebud, too!
I love you,
Paige and Maria Rose July/2009
Posted by paigebeth at 8:27 PM
Saturday, October 30, 2010
My sis, Mandy Anne was born February 7, 1995. She is the only one named after my mom. My mom's middle name was Anne. Mandy has always had her own unique personality. When she was little I wasn't as close to her since I was several years older and Carla was more my age. We always referred to Mandy, Maria Rose and James Greg as the "little ones". But since she has grown, I have become much closer to her. In fact all my siblings are growing up too fast! I can't believe she will be sixteen in a few months, blows my mind.
When Mandy was little she had some funny quirks about her. She loved to collect paper, we called her a little pack rat. She probably doesn't want me to share this information, but I'm going to haha. What are big sisters for? LOL! All her little purses would be stuffed with random papers and we would have to clean out her room once in awhile when she wasn't there. When she was little she also did not like the toilet. The reason being once it had stopped up and the water overflowed when it was flushed. That scared her so badly. We would ask her why she was afraid of the toilet, and she would say, "it went up and down, up and down" while demonstrating for us with her hands. :) For a long time she would freak out when she had to go to a new bathroom because of the toilet.
When she was little she was scared of a lot of things. She did not like lullaby's, she would start crying if she heard one being sung. She got a baby doll once that sang a lullaby and she hated that doll. She also didn't like the baby mobile above the baby bed being played. I think maybe they sounded sad and she didn't like that. She also LOVED Precious Moments and Winnie the Pooh.
She also took after my mom, Carla and me with reading. We are bookworms and she is one, too. Mama would also ask us a lot to scratch her back, and Mandy was always willing to do it. Mama would tease Carla and me saying that Mandy was her princess for scratching her back. That would get on our nerves, but Mama only did it to tease us. She never picked favorites out of her children. Mandy also loved to play dress-up when she was little. She would always have on something, a tiara, plastic high heel shoes, jewelry, princess gloves, dresses, etc. It didn't matter what it was, she loved to always have something pretty on.
Mandy is such a loving, caring girl. She is also very smart, and I'm so proud she is my sister. She is very easy-going and loves to laugh and have a good time. She is not afraid to speak her mind, and that is an awesome personality trait. Mandy if you are reading this, I want you to know that I love you so much! I pray everyday that God show you how much I love you. I'm also sorry if I hurt you by moving out, I didn't mean to do that. You are one of the best sisters a girl could ever ask for. You mean so much to me, and I would do anything for you. If you ever need to talk, I am here. I miss you so much and can't wait to see you again. I will love you forever!
I love you,
Posted by paigebeth at 1:35 PM