Monday, October 25, 2010

My Sissy, Carla!

Paige and Carla

Hello my dear friends and family! I am going to TRY and post something on both of my blogs at least once a week. Since I have blogs, I need to blog regularly. I will try my best to do that. My posts might be random, but I always post what is on my heart and mind. Tonight I am missing someone who I love so much. It's my sister, Carla. I know I have blogged about her in the past, but I'm going to do it again. I miss all my siblings and love them so much. I also miss my dad, too. I love them all! Since I don't want to leave anyone out I am going to post about all of my siblings this week. So here goes...

My sister, Carla and I are three years apart in age. I was born in April of 1988 and she was born in April of 1991. She has always been my best friend, we were inseparable growing up. Since we were close in age we did everything together. Before she was born I had my own room, but then after she was born I haven't my had own room since then haha. And I loved that. We always shared a room, and we would have to rearrange about once a month lol. :) I find myself to this day, when arranging my house, wishing Carla were with me helping me. We were always a great team. Of course we had our sisterly arguments/fights like everyone has. But we always loved each other so much. When were little she was always my playmate, and I still remember some of those games we would make up and play with our baby dolls and Barbies. They might be silly, but they are wonderful memories!

Even when we became teenagers we stayed so close. A lot of the time when we walked around we would walk with our arms draped over each other. I remember being out in public sometimes and people would guess who was older and they always picked Carla. I didn't like it at that time because I liked being older. :) But now I know who will look younger longer haha. :) Just joking!

Today we are still close but not like it used to be. Some have told me that we are just living different chapters in our lives, but I don't care. I will always love her and consider her one of my very best, best friends! It doesn't matter to me that we live in separate states, or what we are doing, we can still be close. I really think I have hurt her in the past, and I am not quite sure she is 100% over it. I have apologized for hurting her or leaving her alone to fill a spot she shouldn't have had to have filled. I never wanted to hurt anyone, especially not my family. I don't think what I did was wrong, it just hurt extra because of what my family had to go through. I moved out when I turned 18 and that's not a strange concept. People do it everyday. But my family and I were experiencing a difficult circumstance, one no one wanted to go through. I made my decision based on what I had to do but I was not trying to hurt anyone. And Carla if you are reading this, I am so sorry. I know I have told you before, and I don't know what else I can say to convince you of that. I just want you to be open with me again. You seem so closed up and I don't want that for us. You are my best friend, Sissy and I love you so much! I would die for you, you know that, right? I ask God everyday to let you know how much I love you!

My sister, Carla is one of the best sisters a girl could ever ask for and I will always love her so much. I miss her so much! I want my old Sissy back somehow, and I am willing to do whatever it takes. You will always be my dish washing buddy! I love you!!!
Your Sister,

Carla and me Easter of 1993

Carla and me with our arms draped around each other.

Carla and me at our grandparent's house

Carla and me in 2006 moving our whole family to the new house.

Carla and me in 2009 when I went to visit my family.

Carla and me at Florida Caverns State Park earlier this year.